A Dot to Dot Sky

2008-06-11T15:09:00.001+01:00

2008-06-11T15:08:00.001+01:00

venture elsewhere

2008-04-03T09:00:00.001+01:00

Every Other Day

My days are repetitive chores
They seep through my pores
And deeper they bore
Beyond the mundane and no way profane
Building terrible traps
That will see me collapse
Beneath the weight of a withering day
Where a nightmare unfolds
Beyond a story well told

Take me as you find me
Leave me where I’m lost
I’ll confess
To nothing less
Than everything you’ve got

Of the facts I’m regrettably sure
They’ve bolted the doors
I’m welcome no more
In the parlour of the wayward father
Confessing his sins
To the alleyways bins
Behind the church of later day saints
Baptised in the name
Of my delinquent disdain

Take me as you find me
Leave me where I’m lost
I’ll confess
To nothing less
Than everything you’ve got

2007-10-27T20:13:00.000+01:00

Talk Me Out Of

Snake charming
On the desert plain
Self harming
Someone else again

The things you talk me out of
Are the things I long to do
The things that I’m made out of
Are tearing me in two

Nod once for yes
And never for no
There’s positivity
Taking hold

The things you talk me out of
Are the things I long to do
The things that I’m made out of
Are tearing me in two

Look right and left
Listen close
Crossing the hollow
Where nothing grows

The things you talk me out of
Are the things I long to do
The things that I’m made out of
Are tearing me in two

Gather the troops
Prepare the excuses
We’ll hide on the roof
Until it all passes

The things you talk me out of
Are the things I long to do
The things that I’m made out of
Are tearing me in two

2007-10-17T22:57:00.003+01:00

Eskimo Me

We’ve been everything
To one another
I’ve been your friend
And I’ve been your lover

It’s never enough
I always crave the things
I’m not supposed to have

Like your future and your past
And the things that never last
Like raindrops on roses
Or childhood wishes
And pressing our noses
In Eskimo kisses

We’re secluded
In our bubble
Of poetry, prose
And afternoon cuddles

It’s always enough
I always crave the things
I’m not supposed to have

Like your future and your past
And the things that never last
Like raindrops on roses
Or childhood wishes
And pressing our noses
In Eskimo kisses

2007-10-17T22:57:00.001+01:00

You Tell the Story

You tell the story of my life
In a nutshell
It’s a tale of lust and lies
And the wrong girl

But here’s a new chapter
I wrote it here, today
Love never really mattered
Until you looked my way

Love and I were passers by
Until you had it meet me
There I sighed, ‘you caught my eye
Wandering discreetly’

How do you know me the way you do?
You knot and bow me, I’m tied to you

You sing the song of solitude
I wrote the words
Loneliness and I were fused
I’m sure you’ve heard

But how the chorus changes
I’ll sing it to the world
I’ll rewrite all the pages
Now I’ve found the girl

Love and I were neighbours
Passing in the hall
She did me no great favours
Until she let us fall

How do you know me the way you do?
You knot and bow me, I’m tied to you

2007-10-17T20:15:00.001+01:00

the trouble with me
is the trouble with men
regret what we've done
then do it again

apologise once
and hope for the best
a lesson well learned
is one we'll forget

2007-10-17T20:14:00.000+01:00

it comes back to haunt
as you grow slowly old
the lies you've told and the dice you've rolled

2007-10-17T20:13:00.000+01:00

On meeting Carly Jones

betwixt our dreams
pass images mutual
of acceptance natural
and understanding eventual

2007-10-17T20:12:00.000+01:00

take a long hard look at the history book
find a time
to call your own
take another quick peak before you dare speak
find a voice
to call your own

2007-10-17T20:11:00.002+01:00

like takes a familiar pattern
i've taken more hits than the hitman hatton
but here we are
still stood tall
and propping up the bar

2007-10-17T20:11:00.001+01:00

fate's a thousand faded fantasies
falling to the floor
when all your hopes are on the ropes
i'll fight to find you more

2007-10-17T20:09:00.000+01:00

there's a price to pay
for the fame you crave
you'll forget your name

and the things you've seen
the things you've been
and the things you mean

the twisted road to fame
is badly paved
and leads to shame

the hopes and bones
of all the clones
they line the road

2007-10-17T20:07:00.000+01:00

she's a bird of prey...
give her freedom and she'll never fly away
let her spread her wings
and you know she'll always stay

she's a shooting star
glowing in my eyes, glows afar
as we gaze into the darkness
she shows us where we are

2007-10-17T20:06:00.000+01:00

you talk the talk
but you walk like a two-bit chancer
or a deceitful partner
who swears he'll stay
but they're all the same
they'd sell you out
for a shot at fame

2007-10-17T20:04:00.000+01:00

you tell the story of my life... in a nutshell
it's a tale of lust and lies... and the wrong girl
you're pretty but you're petty
and i've got my eye on you
all the feelings you've been stealing
are catching up with you

2007-10-17T20:03:00.001+01:00

Hunger (never's now)

You say you’re going hungry
For the song inside your head
Well you’re starved of any talent
And soon it might fall dead

The pulse is growing weaker
You say you’ll find it… how?
You say it’s now or never
I’m sorry, never’s now

You’re just a fucking waster
You’re stringing her along
Stole her glory and her gift
And drowned it in a song

How happy will I be
When she’s broken free
Of the ties that bind
To your narrow mind
And the melody of misery
You hum when no-one’s listening

You say you’re going hungry
For the song you wrote in bed
I’m sorry it’s put bluntly
But you’ll starve yourself to death

Success may someday find you
But here’s the honest truth
The only way you’ll get there
Is if she plots the route

You’re playing silly buggers
If you let your ego lead
Away from what she’s saying
Cos she’s everything you need

How happy will I be
When she’s broken free
Of the ties that bind
To your narrow mind
And the melody of misery
You hum when no-one’s listening

2007-10-14T09:57:00.001+01:00

Words are a way out
They chip at doubt
Sculpt something beautiful
From my deepest, ugly thoughts

A novel will appear
From behind the sea of tears
We are the moon behind
Each others swaying tides

I can clear the mess
Of stacked up sadness
That litters my garden
And will not pardon

Itself for the way
We crumble away
Apologies and heart felt things
That the morning light brings

Are enough to calm me
From the things that harm me
Words are a way in…
They break my skin

2007-10-14T09:55:00.001+01:00

Words

Fate’s a thousand faded fantasies
Fallen to the floor
When your hopes are on the ropes
You know you’ll grow some more

The weight of your words
Can be a blessing or a burden
Which do we prefer?
Which makes us more certain?

Blessings bring good fortune
But there’s no boredom in you burdens
All I know, is if they go
The situation worsens

Living half a life
Cardboard children, flat packed wife
May suit the suited city gent
Who cleans his car, pays his rent

But I crave the indecision
Of chasing half baked visions
Across the rolling tundra
Even as it pulls me under

Blessings bring good fortune
But there’s no boredom in you burdens
All I know, is if they go
The situation worsens

2007-10-14T09:52:00.002+01:00

Dead Soldiers

All that I am
All that I could have been
Everything slips
Somewhere in between

The gutter and the garden
Where the weeds of wonder grow
And I know it’s not your problem
Where the things I’m feeling go

We’ll dance in the valley where dead things go
The vast museum of soldiers and souls
Faded and jaded and put on display
Where death and despair refuse to decay

2007-10-14T09:52:00.001+01:00

Tie a Ribbon now a Rope

The faces are dusted
With the remnants of the past
Where the windows are busted
And the floor’s just broken glass

The house is a ruin
The dreams we had are lost
We dunno what we’re doing
Stacking boxes in the loft

Too many faces
Walk the corridors
Talking of the places
They’ve never met before

Oh won’t you take me back
To the home we had
Where everyone was lonely
Lonely in a crowd
And everything we did
We did for one another

The garden’s over growing
Thoughts are tangled in the mouths
Of the weeds that brush a ceiling
Carved from darkened clouds

The house is not a home
It’s a cube that once held hope
Where I hang around alone
On a ribbon, now a rope

Too many faces
Walk the corridors
Talking of the places
They’ve never met before

Oh won’t you take me back
To the home we had
Where everyone was lonely
Lonely in a crowd
And everything we did
We did for one another

2007-10-14T09:51:00.002+01:00

Reveal

They’re in and out of fashion
The things that shape my passion
Romance and revelation
And the hopes of a nation

The place where you began
Decides where you’ll end up

Life falls like autumn leaves
And I’ll always believe
Romance and revelation
Are the only destination

The place you set your heart on
Is the place you have to be

It’s easy to imagine
That old age dulls the passion
Romance and revelation
They blur the generations

When you find a time of comfort
Settle in the seat

By way of explanation
Romance and revelation
Are the only thing to cling to
When the answers will not come
Believe in what you’re feeling
And not in things you hold

2007-10-14T09:51:00.001+01:00

untitled oct 07

They deliver me from evil
From the devilish
And the dark
They take on my upheaval
And the revival
Of my art

So I turn my hand to arming
The insurgents and their sons
Who’ll sketch by hand
The Holy land
And what it may become

all this time looking you never really saw
true leaders lead away from war

They carry all my burdens
Through the dramas
And the dark
They draw back the curtains
And the questions
Of my heart

So I turn my hand to palming
The placid people off
They long to reach
The bloody beach
And pepper it with bombs

all this time looking you never really saw
true leaders lead away from war

2007-10-14T09:50:00.004+01:00

Photo Fading

What’s a girl to do with a point of view
But no voice left to raise it
What’s a girl to say when they turn away
And she knows no words can change it?

It’s a gloomy day
When you break away
But your freedom sits disjointed
It’s a stormy night
When you find your life
Is one that no one wanted

What’s a boy to do with a point to prove
When nobody will listen
What’s a boy to think chained to a sink
In someone else’s kitchen

It’s a gloomy day
When you break away
But your freedom sits disjointed
It’s a stormy night
When you find your life
Is one that no one wanted

What am I to do, there’s a lot to lose
And hope’s a photo, fading
What am I to find if I clear my mind
To see why it keeps changing

It’s a gloomy day
When you break away
But your freedom sits disjointed
It’s a stormy night
When you find your life
Is one that no one wanted

2007-10-14T09:50:00.003+01:00

Moving On

I’m moving on
We thought this thing might float
We proved us wrong

You’re too intense
Intrigue turns inertia
You don’t make sense

“It’s not you, it’s me”
We’ll both probably say it
But you know it’s me
I know it’s you
I wish I could fix it
But I don’t know what to do.

I’m moving on
We tried to tether trust
But it won’t belong

I’m too intense
I wonder what I’m writing
It’s all pretence

“It’s not you, it’s me”
We’ll both probably say it
But you know it’s me
I know it’s you
I wish I could fix it
But I don’t know what to do.

2007-10-14T09:50:00.001+01:00

Over the Edge

When you turn back
You might just see
A shadow of the gallows
That seem to follow me

I’m pin-pricked
And the energy seeps out
I’m desolate
And I’m destined to the doubts

The things they send to test me
Are the only things I feel

So here it comes
Like the morning sun
Over the edge
Of an Earth always spinning

So best foot forward
Wander free of me
I’m destined to something
That people shouldn’t see

I’m dumb struck
But they all just say I’m dumb
but I’m not fucked
I curse the things I’ve done

The things they send to test me
Are the only things I feel

So here it comes
Like the morning sun
Over the edge
Of an Earth always spinning

2007-10-14T09:49:00.001+01:00

Circus

Life took herself too serious
Once again
How it leaves me cold and curious
Til the end

And I hope in dropping off
I might find
Why the things I cannot stop
They fill my mind

So travel with me
Into the heart of a city
Where no one ever sleeps
And the circus never leaves
So travel with me
Dig the roots of my pity
Where no one ever sleeps
And the circus never leaves

Life has been the death of me
Once again
I’ll play upon the infamy
Of a friend

And I hope in opting out
I get the chance
To lead the more devout
A merry dance

So travel with me
Into the heart of a city
Where no one ever sleeps
And the circus never leaves
So travel with me
Dig the roots of my pity
Where no one ever sleeps
And the circus never leaves

2007-10-14T09:48:00.003+01:00

Elusive

I loved you
Rather than lose you
I blamed myself
And nothing else
For the corridor you wandered

I loved you
And confused you
I blamed our game
Of subtle shame
For every chance you’ve squandered

My truths remain elusive
I had my way then slipped away
My confessions are inconclusive
I speak my mind in riddles, rhymes

I leave you
For betraying me
I should have learned
My back was turned
And you let some footnote use you

I leave you
For delaying me
If I could have
My past life back
I’m not sure that I’d choose you

My truths remain elusive
I had my way then slipped away
My confessions are inconclusive
I speak my mind in riddles, rhymes

2007-10-14T09:48:00.001+01:00

Indigo

Turn away again
I’ll get used to
Falling through the gap between
Where you find sleep and I find dreams

Look away again
While I’m changing
Pick the seems of who I’ve been
Speak fragments of the things I mean

Are you awake, I need to know
My eyes are turning indigo
So give me a minute
Leave your dream unfinished

We’ll write our story on the wall
We’ll tell them all
I’ll unbutton my heart
It’s a start, you say
I’m tired of reaching
For a star a wish too far

2007-10-14T09:47:00.001+01:00

Daylight Hiding

There’s daylight hiding
Behind the curtain that you drew
Pencilled in and painted
We always knew

You only see what you want to see
And I wonder what you see in me
I bite my tongue so often
It’s permanently blood
And where all my fear’s forgotten
I guess it must be love

There’s daylight hiding
In the corners of your room
Creeping to the ceiling
We see it too

You only see what you want to see
And I wonder what you see in me
I bite my tongue so often
It’s permanently blood
And where all my fear’s forgotten
I guess it must be love

There’s daylight hiding
Somewhere in the gloom
We’ll have to let some light in
You know it’s true

You only see what you want to see
And I wonder what you see in me
I bite my tongue so often
It’s permanently blood
And where all my fear’s forgotten
I guess it must be love

2007-10-14T09:46:00.000+01:00

Armada

My fears
Are nothing new
I’ve had them years

But in your bed
I might have said
I’ve shed the tears

To float a new armada
And sail the seven seas
With destiny and a ha’penny
And my back turned to the breeze

My time
Will play again
I’ve seen a sign

But in your heart
My life departs
And will not shine

So float a new armada
And sail the seven seas
With destiny and a ha’penny
And my back turned to the breeze

2007-10-14T09:45:00.001+01:00

Upon the beach of my imagination

I write today
to right the wrongs of my yesterday
And that’s the best way
To say
That my words get in my way

Whenever you bore me
I adore me
For I turn that sighed emotion
Into a notion
Or an ocean

Of tears
That drown my fears
And float ideas
Along a tide
That my plainest dreams abide

And the heart ache
That you make
That which I take
And craft a subtle tale
To show you how

Your cold heart
Could never see me part
From my one true lust
That which says I must
Throw sand grains to the sky, gold dust

See them, on breezes, glitter
It never fails to rid the bitter
After taste
Of our affection gone to waste
On a lover running late

In her own life
In the skin of a washed up wife
Over which she drags a knife
But no blood seeps
Or slowly weeps

For her heart is stone
Skimmed alone
Across the surface of the spray
I write today
To right the wrongs of yesterday

And craft with calloused hands
A tomorrow on the pebbled sands
Where failure and fear
Can disappear
Washed up relics, dried beneath the pier

That wooden spine
That stretches out in time
To the swaying tide
That hides
The truth that sails inside

My head
Where all she’s said
Is casting arc thrown nets
That tangle with regrets
That I fear I may forget

and thus make again
the same mistakes of men
who let love bathe
in some unlit cave
where they never gave

it time to float
or board the boat
with subtlety
or destiny
or good old fashioned piracy

and so I’ll never
have that treasure
that fate would have us find together
those things, now out of reach
never wash up on my beach

2007-09-06T09:00:00.000+01:00

A Boy In Awe

she makes a boy like me so proud
open hearts and minds speak loud
talking of the things held deep
find inside the strength to speak
to let things out that hold much weight
to clear the junk and decorate
your feelings with earthy, worthy tones
and scrape the moss from long sat stones
the guilt you feel it says so much
you're a kind, warm girl who floats on love
it's not a game of blame you play
it's sorting thoughts and fears away
it's beautiful, the strength you find
to organise the past behind
and make the present pure for you
and find one future from our two
your bravery leaves this boy in awe
I've never felt so proud, I couldn't love you more

2007-09-06T01:25:00.001+01:00

she's not the marrying type
but that's alright
pieces of paper and wedding rings
are tiny things
but our souls forever merged
are bigger than the universe

2007-09-06T01:01:00.000+01:00

All I Ever Wanted

I sing you to sleep
with your favourite song
I try my best
but the words are wrong

all I ever wanted was a you to call my own

I paint you a picture
of your favourite day
I try my best
but the colours fade

all I ever wanted was a you to call my own

I walk you home
every day
I try my best
but forget the way

all I ever wanted was a you to call my own

I pin your hopes
to shooting stars
I try my best
but they move too fast

all I ever wanted was a you to call my own

2007-09-06T00:57:00.000+01:00

you've got more answers
than I've got questions
my thoughts are mapped out
and you have the directions

2007-09-06T00:50:00.000+01:00

AaBb

she loves him
and she loathes him
fuck knows where it's heading
she plans his funeral
and it's beautiful
but then she'll plan his wedding

he dates her
but he hates her
and he won't treat her with caution
he fucks her
then he chucks her
and insists on the abortion

2007-09-06T00:38:00.000+01:00

I'm leaving in the morning
so pass me one last kiss
a memory of something
I shouldn't miss

ask me not to do it
and I'll unpack my case
settle back beside you
wipe the worry from your face

apologies are hollow
when I keep on doing wrong
but think about tomorrow
I'll be gone

I'm leaving in the morning
and I need a ride
we'll whisper all the way
and I'll get you back on side

I'm leaving in the morning
one more chance
you smile, it's a warning
one last merry dance

you lead me on
and do me wrong
pull the wings from flying things
and let us wander on

2007-09-05T16:49:00.000+01:00

Oh I'm dismayed
the edges of our loose arrangement
are growing frayed
but it's ok

we'll sow patches
across the gaps between us
for time it snatches
life away

unless we stop
to rearrange things grown disordered.
it's all we've got
it's all I'll say

2007-09-05T13:12:00.000+01:00

her ramblings on a train
of thought
speak volumes
of the life i sought

2007-09-05T11:43:00.000+01:00

if the poem's about you
you will know
they feel warm and true
and they glow

2007-09-05T11:36:00.000+01:00

i used to find it funny
i had one hand
but when i lay it on your tummy
i understand
one hand to hold
is all you need from me
if i may be so bold
to say i see
my touch can be discrete
i've hands enough
i once felt incomplete
but you brought love

2007-09-05T11:30:00.000+01:00

i want my words to carry weight
but they'll crush me
when they make you hesitate
and ask a question

you threaten not to speak
why not just kill me
i've been cut, i watch me bleed
you always heal me

i'd give my life to you
and not regret it
you're everything here and now
don't forget it

2007-09-05T10:47:00.001+01:00

he hates the way
she'll always say
the wrong thing
but she says it so often
he's almost forgotten
if her words mean anything

2007-09-05T10:06:00.001+01:00

that song on the radio
it always plays
it's like they know
throughout the day
it reminds me how we feel

that scent in the air
it finds my nose
and when it's there
my heartbeat shows
it reminds me that you're real

so take me to the place
where we met
once long ago
and show me the face
i can't forget
and tell me so

tell me so many many stories of the dreams we'll split in two
take our hearts, swap the halves, and hold tight to something new

that book on the shelf
i've read it twice
not for myself
but because you like
the way it tells our tale

that autumn breeze
it brings us close
here, i feel free
and how it shows
i know you're with me now

so take me to the place
where we met
once long ago
and show me the face
i can't forget
and tell me so

tell me so many many stories of the dreams we'll split in two
take our hearts, swap the halves, and hold tight to something new

2007-09-05T09:59:00.001+01:00

you'll see
the things you see in me
i'm blinded to them
momentarily

my ego fits
in that hollow space it sits
i'm better than everyone
yeah, i admit

as a writer
i chase success
i think it's there, in reach
as a lover
i'm sure less
but myself i'll have to teach

to accept the fact you love me
as much as i love you

2007-09-05T09:40:00.000+01:00

make a note, my boy
the sympathy vote
is in your pocket
you'll pull it out
when they least expect it
don't neglect it
the foot in a door
a foot on the ladder
dignity won't matter
it's not where you're going
it's how you get there quick
pray on the warmth
and make it stick
when there's pity in the eyes
that judge you.
talent's never enough
the one thing people love
is a sob story told
with a narrators tongue
that despises the way
it apologises
for being born that way

2007-09-05T09:37:00.001+01:00

take a final look at the history book
as i drop it from the balcony
you make a present of my future
from a hollow past, it's alchemy

i'm awkward in my skin at times
but you made it comfortable
to converse fluent with the mirror
without turning it to the wall

2007-09-05T09:28:00.000+01:00

at 3am
the demons settled again
i shoo them out
but the scent of doubt
left a trail

i feel it here
paranoia feeds a fear
she's too good for me
she'll always be
that step above

i'm history
delete every trace of me
it's not the end
i'll start again
to suit my dreams

i settle back
into the life i have
her pedestal
it says it all
i am blessed

not by god
or the grace i've got
but by the girl
who curves the world
across our horizon

2007-09-05T09:00:00.000+01:00

Your Words

don't get me wrong, I love the songs
you whispered in my ear
but last night, it wasn't right
i didn't feel you here

i didn't recognise you
in the melody that rolled
from someone elses tongue
and a pen you didn't hold

perhaps i'm narrow minded
perhaps i ask too much
but your words are full of beauty,
your words reach out and touch

so sing a song for me
one that holds your essence
one full of Carlyness
stamped heavy with your presence

2007-09-05T03:26:00.000+01:00

300

milestones are there to pass
but life's too fast
i get wrapped up
in situations
that compromise
my complications
my ambitions
and visions
show me a future
the i grab at, fingers tensed
it all makes sense
at last
life's too fast

2007-09-05T01:55:00.000+01:00

the doors

i apologise for sleeping
in your bed all afternoon
i never thought you'd notice
from the corner of the room

where you were pressing daises
and daisy massaged yours
you really should have woke me
instead of slamming doors

cos now they're off their hinges
and don't sit in the frame
out of the frame? unhinged?
yeah, you're the same

this isn't a marriage
it's a makeshift mockery
we sleep on dirty sheets
and broken crockery

but i love you like no other
and i adore the things you said
when you told me that you need me
as you sent me back to bed

2007-09-05T01:52:00.000+01:00

but for your past
i may have been your future
it's the way to start a song
that's not a love song

...?

2007-09-05T01:36:00.000+01:00

Stand Up

there's an angry mob standing
on the landing of our home
saying i've been playing
where i shouldn't be playing
and they've come to pick my bones

those skeletons in the closet
are playing hide and seek
from the violence
swallowing silence
too scared to speak

so we'll all stand up
put a hand up, start calling
in faith, unite
and fight the fight
in the name of the fallen

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matthew_Shepard

2007-09-05T01:29:00.000+01:00

Every Dream Would Last

there's a square in the middle of town
i'll meet you there
dressed in hand-me-downs
with scruffed up hair

and you'll say i look familiar
I'll say we felt the same
long ago, i know
but you'll remember my name

because i'm the moment in the day
you look away
and catch your own reflection
longing for the past
where we were everything
and every dream would last

there's a place we used to go
it's smaller now
but how resentment grows
it weighs you down

you'll tell me you've missed me
i'll say 'improve your aim'
you'll regret you ever kissed me
you know i'll feel the same

because i'm the moment in the day
you look away
and catch your own reflection
longing for the past
where we were everything
and every dream would last

2007-09-05T01:24:00.000+01:00

And So She Sings
(first draft)

the girl with something to say
is quiet tonight
her voice alone could guide the way
it casts a light

it's there on the tip of her tongue
and in her eyes
brighter than the morning sun
in summer skies

and all I know
is that she shows me
where it is a life must go
and all i have
is all she gave me
and i'm glad to watch it grow

the boy who always says too much
he makes it worse
he ponders too long on love
and how it works

he never could picture it real,
a love like this.
and more than death he dreads to feel
her parting kiss.

i'll let it show
the girl, she knows me
and she takes me on a path
all i see
is what she shows me
and it glistens through the dark

as one they always say enough
in silent songs
the shadow softly cast by love
it lingers long

two jigsaw pieces scattered
there at their feet
they click and merge on all that matters
it's complete

the light is low
but how they know that
they'll guide each other home
where he'll write
a heartfelt sonnet
and she'll sing the song they know

2007-09-05T01:04:00.000+01:00

evening news

we don't look like you
but how we'd like to
you're a handsome flock of fuckers
posed, preened and magazined.
from the moment you were born
you dodged the flack
mineral water off a ducks back
and i'm typing words
hollow and without meaning
but keep on reading
because somewhere along
might be a song
or a poem that moves
and manuipulates you
stimulates and masturbates you.
so smallest at the front
little dicks and little cunts
lined up for god
a firing squad
well the catholic church
it doesn't work
two thousand years in the making
and faking
salvation and devestation
slavery and solidarity
dressed like twin sisters.
and in a world of refugees
i'm a head of state
aint it great
a rigged election
semi-erection
fucking you gently
and you don;t know it's done
til you're covered in my mess
they vote me out
i don't doubt
i deserved it
but there's a hierarchy
and i preserved it
stupid white men
same mistakes
over and over and over again
and if 'woman is the nigger of the world'
i'm just a girl
growing into my chastity noose
that's still a little loose.
fuck me and love me and fuck me some more
i'm just a whore
in parisian underpasses
and toilet floors.
there's an anger on the streets
it's incomplete
a half tirade
sweet as cherryade
sour as the power of your faith
you're manic, islamic on the front page of the Sun
they show your face, full size, page one
turn the leaf, she's undressed, underneath.
and the weatherman says, with my tongue in his cheek,
it's mild this week.

2007-09-04T23:04:00.001+01:00

Collide and Join

we're one glorious, fucked up soul
spread between two bodies
we collide and join together
raindrops on the tide

real love ripples the air
all the floating feelings solidify
insecurity and paranoia
follow loneliness to bed

we are amazing halves
of a glorious whole
weddings and whatnots: only words
but this reshapes my soul

I do not need to glance over
I know you’re by my side
if life flashes past as death appears
with your beauty, mine will shine

2007-09-04T22:44:00.000+01:00

Death calls
But I am not ready
Let me just slip on
A few more years
I plead
I need a few more moments
In the company
Of she
Who made life less fragments
More a whole
Into which I fell
Deep in love
By your side
I find
One life was not enough

2007-09-02T23:07:00.001+01:00

A Virgin Who Fucks Like a Whore

a virgin who fucks like a whore
he couldn't ask for more
she's nearly fourteen
he's nearly thirty-four
and the long arm of the law
is tapping at the window
her school tie on the door
is blowing in the wind though
and they don't hear anything
over static on the radio
detuned and debauched
they don't have much to say, you know

2007-09-02T22:55:00.000+01:00

I piss love letters
in the first snow of winter
the imagery is subtle
and the romance slightly off
it's all i've got
i'm hardly romantic
and somewhat dramatic
and my soul is dot to dot

2007-09-02T22:41:00.000+01:00

I never liked couples in love until we were one
Solitude was always enough I'm just a person
Who never felt the urge to need until I saw you
and something locked away was freed, I adore you

2007-09-02T21:57:00.000+01:00

A Sea Pea Induced Renaissance

your words
are a kick in the cock
make me shiver
makes me stop
and listen
to the sounds of the streets
unplug the buds
of my cd player
ear'ole the traffic
and voicey noise
walking to the melody
of my mouldy melon
a chitter chit chat
chewing the fat
of my own
familiar
thoughts
(and faults)

2007-09-02T21:55:00.001+01:00

ETC

she stole in a kiss
a thousand wayward wishes
neatened the edges
and pressed them to my lips

'take these back'
she pleaded with her pupils
the windows to her world
who teach me everything

2007-09-02T21:41:00.000+01:00

Mirror, mirror, martyr me

I'll cut the power
to my own insecurity
there's enough of it around us
to more than martyr me.

It takes me hours
to wash its taste from my mouth
I press my lips against yours
you purify, you cure the doubt.

2007-09-02T21:36:00.000+01:00

You're the One

sometimes we wobble
and stop to check our footing's sound
thankfully it shows us
we walk as one on solid ground

2007-09-02T09:40:00.000+01:00

A Sunday Morning in the not-too-distant Future

Here I am
there you are
waking in the shadow
of a sparkling shooting star.
I send you songs to swallow
you sing them back to me
they always sound better
wrapped in your melody.
I fall from frayed edges
into your unmade bed,
you wrap my arm around you
while I massage your head.

2007-09-01T23:59:00.000+01:00

Lost on the Horizon

it's a hell hole in the Holy land
they understand
it's not the sort of place
to show your face
or state your case
or find yourself misplaced
but here we are
lost on the horizon
of a city built too small

2007-09-01T23:54:00.000+01:00

Bell Jar

I left your cage door open
to see how far you'd fly
look how far you've come
oh, how I realise

that clipped wings never flutter
watched clocks never cease
good girls never wander
and smothered girls don't breathe

I carve my name in tree trunks
so life forgets me not
look how sure I show you
the only facts I've got...

that clipped wings never flutter
watched clocks never cease
good girls never wander
and smothered girls don't breathe

the daily papers line your cage
you'll read there what you will
I see it printed on your face
it's obvious you feel....

that clipped wings never flutter
watched clocks never cease
good girls never wander
and smothered girls don't breathe

2007-09-01T23:53:00.001+01:00

in progress

love is not enough
i need the inspiration
of artistry at work
and constant complications

you stole my heart
in poetry and prose
wrapped it in pink ribbons
and held it to my nose

2007-09-01T23:50:00.000+01:00

Stay and face the facts

staying or going
what's the key to knowing?

if working through an issue
is better than escaping
i wonder if i'd miss you
if the scenery was changing

i want this to work
but your silence clears my head
of anything of worth
- places panic there instead

tell me one truth
show me something that you're feeling
my insecurities will fade
and i'll feel something with meaning

2007-09-01T23:43:00.000+01:00

notes

i watch it for hours
it's a tiny vase
that holds dead flowers
and multi-coloured stars

--------------

the windows and doors here
were fastened long ago
now it's just a cube
where no one ever goes

--------------

do not forget / that all regret
is a secret to share
with a race of lonely people

--------------

my girl, yeah, i get the gist
a sorry story, always pissed

--------------

the daily papers line your cage
you'll read there what you will
i see it printed on your face
it's obvious you feel....

2007-09-01T23:42:00.000+01:00

Mermaid

she made a mermaid
of all the broken shells
that litter little beaches
like the dreams of broken girls

2007-09-01T23:40:00.000+01:00

again

the overgrown undergrowth
is scratching at the ceiling
of the room she keeps the ghosts
of everything she's feeling

they're labelled, numbered, boxed
and held there for safe keeping
she only lets them out
when her hazel eyes start bleeding

2007-09-01T23:38:00.000+01:00

notes on dreaming in her bed

she came to watch me sleep
to see
if sadness dared to taint my dreams
worried that she'd hurt or hindered me
but i could not find the words to make her see
it's me that pushes me toward the edge
i'm bordering two cities without success
i want to suck my soul in but i can't breathe
i want to be a dreamer but can't sleep

2007-09-01T23:36:00.000+01:00

notes 2

indifference and i
play pat a cake
across the bed
of my best friend
who, space between us, watches from afar
like the pointed tips of shooting stars
she wonders where to land
i understand
nothing of this relationship
the fragile glass dome
my heart calls home
shatters beneath the illusion
that everything's ok

2007-09-01T23:34:00.000+01:00

footprints in the mud

one set of footprints in the sand
'my son' he said 'this you'll understand
that is when i watched you from afar
ashamed at the fuck up that you are
no strength, no faith, no hope, no dignity
an empty shell devoid of purity'

2007-09-01T23:31:00.000+01:00

notes one

i hate to feel it here
but here lies fear
dead, deceased, diminished
but it reappears

through darkness i'm ashamed to call her name
that girl who says we feel the same
rough with the smooth
if neither of us win, neither of us lose

i loved her life
that crawled into my shell
the shell that shattered sharply
as we fell

2007-08-12T21:49:00.000+01:00

God is the Girl
for Carly Jones.

Moments cannot be tarnished with regret
For with your words you craft for me a net
Whose security will never deviate
From that thread spun tapestry of fate
Your fingerprints are dusted on my dreams
Hand crafted definitions of love scenes
It’s gentle and it’s natural, it’s intense
I find myself undressed of all pretence
As we meander, one, through paths well trod
I see your beauty, deep as faith in gods
Where acceptance of your glory is rebirth
Once a non-believer, I see love’s worth
In love you have given me my faith
In life you are the light that guides my way.

2007-07-05T22:10:00.000+01:00

there's subtle poetry at play
in my day to day life
the images and similies
and the patterns in the lines
of my thoughtful face
that worries out words
swooping through the atmosphere
like love-sick, punch-drunk birds.
there's a story in my head
a twisting, wagging tale
the swaggers through itself
and settles here and now
in the middle of the muddle
of the metaphors that sway,
to describe my indecision
there's a poetry at play.

2007-07-05T20:12:00.000+01:00

gunshots and sundrops ring out in the sky
it's the whatnots and the love-me-nots that i'm struggling to defy

2007-07-05T20:09:00.000+01:00

i watch you die a thousand times
and you're never gonna fall again
you pass me by to pass your time
and we're never gonna last, my friend

2007-07-04T20:52:00.000+01:00

I love your wonderful lies
that I'm sure to believe
for you make me naive
see you're sweet to deceive
so I wander to work
in a starshine shirt
that's buttoned up to the sky
sparkles there in my eye.

2007-07-04T00:17:00.001+01:00

Carlay - I be Porgy says:
it could be the beginning of the end?
le petit libertin says:
or the end of the beginning?

2007-07-03T20:59:00.001+01:00

i'm a gonnabe in a world of wannabes
join me on the journey
i'm flying to, or trying to, touch the sun
no matter how it burns me

2007-07-03T20:55:00.000+01:00

i want to be a writer
so to start i'll write your wrongs
i'll change the endings of your novels
and the chorus of your song

2007-07-02T00:53:00.000+01:00

you sleep like a flower sways
on a summer breeze
where beauty holds you in my gaze.

'my boy' you say, 'i'm sure you jest.'
it's not my way,
believe me dear, I just confessed.

I wrap you in my blanket / arms
as beautiful you sleep
and I shelter you from harm.

2007-07-01T17:57:00.000+01:00

When you least expect it.

on the southbound platform
two eye pairs meet
amidst the perfume
of the mapped out streets.
and footsteps patter
over concrete sands
and routine matters
where time expands.
a boy meets a girl
in that clock stopped dot
two tales unfurl
and the clock's forgot.
the landmarks scroll
some cartoon scene
as would-be lovers stroll
there in between.
blue evening sets
in the city's rigid shape.
while these vignettes
storyboard escape.
the night soon hangs
a dark sheet across
those meeting hands
that pull from loss.
big things appear
in moments small
embrace it when it's near
and you can have it all.

2007-07-01T16:18:00.000+01:00

Me and Miss Jones

You flow in my bones, Miss Jones
Sweet marrow that wakes tomorrow from its slumber
That threatened once to drag me under
Into mediocrity and hypocrisy
Where I would ask 'what if I had made that wish'
While never facing the fact that chasing the dreams
That spiral intact was all I had to do.
So here, in the shadow of you, I’m brand new.
A perfect compilation of my hopes and expectations
Where I will be, in spite of me, a mirror image
Of that person you feel is real, when you look at me unfinished
And say 'I envy you; you know... you force yourself to pen your views.'
But it's simple, Miss Jones, I'm fired, inspired, by my muse.

2007-07-01T14:39:00.000+01:00

Firefly

You and I
could bomb the sky
see it shatter into glitter
a thousand silver shards.

Oh my, what a life...
it races by
see it passing through a prism
a rainbow in your eye.

so you and I
could build the sky
see it wander through our wishes
a swooping firefly.

oh my, what a world
it's reflected in your face
you float your feelings home
on a bed of lapping waves.

2007-07-01T14:28:00.000+01:00

Fall in / Falling

Consequential rumours cease.
There's a silence on the lips
of my enigmatic wordsmith.
Love me if you please,
there's a destiny at play
that softens the dismay.

Ornamental burdens flee:
there's a comfort in confusion;
a romantic situation.
For paradoxically
the more I feel I fall
the stronger I stand tall.

2007-06-30T13:56:00.001+01:00

Trust is life
You never stop to hold it ‘til it’s gone
It brings the light
That pulls you from the dark and guides you on

My trust is yours
I know the tales you tell they taste of truth
And I adore
The present and the future we float through.

The winter comes
If you insist it’s summer then grey skies blue
We see the sun
You make my favourite daydreams echo true

I confess
There was a time when I was rattled by a fear
Though I digress
For the past is just the route that got us here.

2007-06-30T09:37:00.000+01:00

It’s a merry dance you lead me
As we race around the block
Chasing dreams you feed me
With one eye on the clock.

You sold me on your vision
Of two futures merged
Do you regret the decision
That you gave me your word?

Life becomes a game of numbers
Where we’re one and the same
Adrift in a world of wonders
I create in your name.

2007-06-27T22:29:00.001+01:00

Inside

What is it about this constellation
Tattooed to her whim
Rainbow scented star shine
That draws me in.

Still surface of new love
Reflected in her face
I am rippled by her words
I am tied there, to her grace

The surface of the lake
Glistens like the skin
Of her silver tongued despair
On her thumb, that silver ring

Circular it starts
And ends in one motion
Where barriers she builds
Will be destructed by emotions

Perfectly closed,
No enigma fades away
Consequential rumours
Unite us in hear say.

She’ll lock doors
Yet at the windows long
For this boy, who waits
For her to see he belongs
Inside

2007-06-27T13:07:00.000+01:00

Your complications
are easy to wallow in
for tomorrow looks alert
to the needs of my existence
while today mascarades in your flowing gown.
I can be all I want to be with you.
I want to be with you.
So abandon type.
unlock yourself.
crave me as the tide craves
the rippled shores
of sandy laps
to settle a head and rest a while.
Still be the sea
and
I'll still be me.
But a me who lives easily
in your constant complications.
x

2007-06-24T20:00:00.000+01:00

poem for a question mark

Miss Jones
my spiralling enigma
that bonds flesh to my bones
makes me think bigger.

my closest friend
a mouthful of question marks
broken bonds you mend
in the whispering dark.

where Romeo and Juliet
plays in the air
far off, away, yet
somehow we're there.

the chiming spoon
as you stir your tea
in the light of the moon
i suddenly see

this complicated love
has become my one addiction
you're too much, not enough...
quite the contradiction

2007-06-24T19:56:00.001+01:00

love has no forecast. if it were expected we could prepare for it, like the rain. we could dress accordingly, we could shelter and prepare. only, it is never so. it appears with no warning and i find myself caught in it. the conditions of it's elements overwhelm me.
my love for you is the gap between the seasons where their traits merge. you are the rain on a july afternoon, you are the sunbeam that sits on the fresh snow. i cannot explain it

2007-06-14T20:09:00.000+01:00

from her window she watches
across the lake
as the mist of morning
is skimmed from the top.
as sunrise mirrors
on the surface of her skin
we've been up all night
we've been everything.

2007-06-13T12:50:00.000+01:00

fear is
feeling like the lid of my dreams
is cracked
and they all spiral out
into the night sky
and you'll not be there to catch them.
for you are, a weaver
and keeper
and catcher of
my most enlightened moments.

2007-06-13T12:47:00.000+01:00

it is good to be loose
and watery
seeping through the cracks
of the harmony
that you have carved on the bark
of the dark, dark tree
in a forest of forgotten light
where, up all night,
you are the solitary candle pulse.